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As I continue to heal, as I lay in bed on a Sunday under the covers telling myself over and over it’s okay, it’s okay to feel your hurt. It’s okay to exist. It’s okay for you to just be in this moment right now. a familiar feeling of loneliness comes across the need for… Read more
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So this moment in my childhood is one of the ones that have changed not only my life. But what I do, how I do it. Who I do it with. How I look at myself. How I basically view the world. And why I cannot have kids now. You might think that surely someone… Read more
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This is an unedited, raw journal entry I wrote speaking to my younger self. To help her heal. As I re read this 6 months down the line… I realise how jarring and raw this peice was. But it was one of the most healing things I have ever done. Although written in incomplete sentences,… Read more
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Dear responsible adults Is there a child in your class that is louder than most. Maybe they don’t go into school much. Maybe you find them smoking or vaping during classes outside on the sports field etc. Maybe they are in a group of friends all that are loud and are maybe looked at as… Read more
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One of the most devastating side effects of CPTSD is the depression side, the intrusive thoughts and the OCD thought loops. That just say over to you that you are a bad person I am a bad person… The constant feeling of guilt. One conversation. One small look or a simple wrong word can send… Read more
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As I am doing a law degree so I can hopefully bring justice and fight for people who have been through similar situations to me. One of the modules that actualy helped me heal from a past abusive relationship (well multiple actually) is ‘Coercion’ it comes under the offences involving people act. Now, when I… Read more
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My storey is pretty heavy yes. But also I feel it is a storey of resilience and a love storey of me falling in love with myself again. One of the best things I have learnt since writing my storey and finally telling people what happened (even if now one is reading it) is how… Read more
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So something that I have suffered with my whole life are eating disorders. I have been told it is something that does go hand in hand with CPTSD. I wanted to share my journey with it. I have had all types of eating disorders. After I had an abortion at 14 I remember walking to… Read more
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So here it is, my birthday…. along with all other ‘normal’ yearly celebrations I dread them to the point where I just wish I could get glamourised (like in Tru Blood) one of my series that I am obsessively re-watching for 10 hours a day at the moment. Glamorized or zapped with the memory deleter… Read more
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So I have so many topics to talk to about my suicidal ideation, having a birthday with CPTSD and many more, but one that has popped up and relates to my now, is when you have experienced long-term childhood trauma I have always completely isolated myself from anyone from the town where it all happened. I have… Read more
My Journey, Healing from CPTSD
Complex, Not Broken is a place where I explore what it means to live with trauma and still choose to rebuild.
I write about therapy, EMDR, triggers, progress, and the everyday realities of living with CPTSD. My goal isn’t to teach — it’s to be honest.
Healing isn’t linear, and neither is this blog. It’s a collection of thoughts, memories, and reflections as I piece together the parts of myself that trauma once tried to take.